It's the week before Christmas, December 17,2013. Probably not the ideal time to start this journey, but I'm tired of promising myself tomorrow. We all know tomorrow comes and goes while everything stays the same.
My current weight is skyrocketing at 264. I'm 5'7" so this puts me in morbid obesity. Yes admitting that to myself is still a struggle. After my first baby I jumped to a size 12. I wasn't particularly happy, but as long as I was able to shop in regular stores I accepted it. I just blamed the baby weight and said there was nothing I could do. A load of crap of course, but easier. Now baby number 2 is 20 months old and I wear 18/20. Yep, gained more weight and in the almost two years have not lost a single pound. If I admit the truth to myself, which I seldom do, I'm here because I'm lazy. I make excuses for lack of time, or that I can't have self control....you know the stuff.
Well the toddler woke my husband and I up at 3:30 am. By 4:00 am I was starving so I offered to make breakfast. Eggs, bacon, and pancakes that is what my hubby requested. He has an amazing metabolism and is thin. Jerk! Lol. He eats whatever he wants and I hate him for that. I should have made a different breakfast for myself, but it smelled so good I caved. Usually after one bad meal I let my day be ruined and eat what I want. Well today I promise to change. Today I'll make the rest of my dad better than the start. Change starts now or never and I'm tired. I'm tired of being depressed by my looks, tired of the lack of energy, tired of the health problems, tired of hating to shop so I don't buy clothes and I don't go out. I want to feel attractive again. I want my blog to be something to keep me in check. To remind myself daily of why I'm on the journey and why I can't give up this time. No more fad diets. I want to be healthy.
Today I promise to workout at least an hour, to eat better, and to drink water.
I'll take this day by day and not worry about how far I have to go. Today is what matters.
So here we go...
